Monday, July 26, 2010

Isaiah 43:2-3

For some random reason I decided to be someone else and just click on our blog as if I had never seen it before. Thinking, as I browsed through, "it's really hard to pretend not to be yourself you silly girl." But, I clicked on the "how it all began" link.  I don't think I ever have.  I read the post.  I don't think I've read since the day I wrote it.  And, I cried. I cried for that poor boy, those parents, that family.  I cried for me.
Believe me, I've done a lot of crying over the last year or so but this was different. I'm removed from it now. I can stand outside of it now and look in on those people. With my heart aching I think, "oh my gosh, how do you survive something like that?"
With Jesus, one day at a time.
We're standing outside of it now but sometimes I feel like we're still in the middle of it. God has done so much in our lives. I am so grateful for the healing in Forester's body, the peace that passes all understanding, and God's presence that has been so near.  But I'm realizing that though he's brought us through the fire, I still grieve that we, rather my child, had to walk through the fire in the first place.  It's like a tender bruise that won't heal.  Does that make sense?
Sometimes I'm just sad about it all. Not any less grateful, just sad. Today seems to be one of those days.

8 comments:

Dave said...

"With Jesus one day at a time." I love it. Thanks for sharing this.

Dr. Geeta Nangia, MD said...

Love you Whit. I love who you are, the mom you are, and the sister in Christ you are. Thanks for sharing.

童祖如童祖如 said...

Learning makes life sweet.

陳林美純易南 said...

人類的聰明,並非以經驗為依歸,而是以接受經驗的行程為依歸。..................................................

Mary Beth said...

yes whit this makes perfect sense and i think now that mollie is on the other side she is feeling the same..almost mourning all the pain and loss NOW that you can actually breathe. i hadn't checked in with you in a long time and my heart leapt with joy at the good news. i pray all is so well with you even now and that your heart would heal indeed. much love and respect- mary beth

家唐銘 said...

Better be the head of a dog than the tail of a lion.............................................................

家唐銘 said...

人生就像一顆核桃,必須敲破它,才會顯出他的內容。......................................................

凱v胡倫 said...

愛情是一種發明,需要不斷改良。只是,這種發明和其他發明不一樣,它沒有專利權,隨時會被人搶走。.................................................................